we shared a brother skin.
some of me was some of him.
his unkempt hair, his oven burns.
the bruises bashed into his every word.
(did you hit him again?)
i tried to be
what you'd need,
but you wouldn't
let me in, and
i will not fight
what is finite—
you had no home;
you had a prison.
he says, "there's no pleasure."
in my defence, i wanted better.
still, i ask him to chop the onions—
i don’t want to cry in front of him.
i do not think
we can drink
enough to forgive
or forget it.
i tried my best
but i digress:
we both needed someone
to trust, let in.
still, it's bigger than
what we began
we said, "yes," but
we could not usurp
so we made hurt
the only word
and in that way
got what we deserve.
wear a coat, dear, i heard it will be cold.
when you come home, you can take off your clothes.
all i ask is: admit you're a coward.
all i ask is: when you scream, scream louder.
reduce it to a single, useless word.
say it loud even though you won't be heard.
what is the body without organs of a book?
a jaw, a jar, a gesture that i could—
between bars, bar-fights, desire, duct-tape,
parades and parks, a river becoming a lake—
i know i said: simultaneity, but
i cannot be you, and you cannot be me.
Though all of the contents of a dictionary will continue to fail me, this album will always save me from certain loneliness each and every time. I love that there is finally an album for those that had their orchard burn down. Thank you.
"if your body's sore i will make some more
i will clack my teeth up tight to yours
comb lint, come less, check for burs & beasts
starve youself for weeks
thats a bible, belt, breathe--" girlwithbasketof_fruitloops
album really takes me back to heartless evenings, longing to be held by arms that didn't want me. As we would dance by prince bay fires, kissing strangers and walling long distances. she kissed me, to then regret it. told him I couldn't hold it in. let him feel the emptiness that I held so firm Reuben Goddard
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