this is an early scar, i said (i hide it under hair)
why shave when i can't even think of a reason for living?
oh wait, sorry - i forgot i love you
i wish i had a different language for this
this one i'm using is running thin on me
sleeping in a closet, clutching you close
hating the way that our forms won't implode
i walked all night through the city only to find
nothing left to steal, all of it is mine
i want wonder and wander and wonder (and)
i don't want to get lost, keep me safe
i am older now
more or less responsible
there's paperwork in a desk drawer
or filing cabinet somewhere to prove this
remember when you wanted to run until your wrists hurt?
remember when you were so good at exploding?
it doesn't fix anything
it's not as easy as "together," "not together"
it's not as easy as "fucking," "not fucking"
Though all of the contents of a dictionary will continue to fail me, this album will always save me from certain loneliness each and every time. I love that there is finally an album for those that had their orchard burn down. Thank you.
"if your body's sore i will make some more
i will clack my teeth up tight to yours
comb lint, come less, check for burs & beasts
starve youself for weeks
thats a bible, belt, breathe--" girlwithbasketof_fruitloops
album really takes me back to heartless evenings, longing to be held by arms that didn't want me. As we would dance by prince bay fires, kissing strangers and walling long distances. she kissed me, to then regret it. told him I couldn't hold it in. let him feel the emptiness that I held so firm Reuben Goddard
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